You are walking in your calling and trusting God without borders. You’ve taken the limits off him and allowed him into every area of your life. Your prayer life is consistent, and you have discovered your true identity in Christ. A light bulb has come on and you finally realize why you were born and live every day like it is your last because you want to please your heavenly father.
The ups and downs and round the mountains and down the valleys that life is full of do not stop your hustle. In fact, you thrive on it because you believe that you are who God says you are and that nothing can stop you because you have confessed that you are nothing without HIM.
You can’t sleep at night but it’s not because demons are haunting you, it is because angels are being dispatched and you can’t take your eyes off the vision. You’ve written, and you’ve made it plain. Your dwellings are adorned with it and your doorways are anointed…you feel protected. Letting any ill spirit in your midst is unlikely because you protect what you’ve been given.
There are times when you fall short but we all do so you are always reminded that you are not condemned because you are saved. Things that use to tempt you no longer tempt you anymore because you resist it when it approaches you and it is tired of hearing you scream that you are more than a conqueror. That thing has been evicted and its power has been revoked.
Prayers coming from your lips do not cease because of the gratitude that you have in your heart. Worship comes easy. Comprehension of his word is like water, refreshing and plentiful.
This is a question that I had to ask myself today after listening to a sermon online about the “Dysfunctions of Comfort”. I strive to be as humble as I can be and I’ve never viewed that as a bad thing, but have I used it as a cover up for my insecurities? I like to think of myself as a secure and confident person in 99% of areas in my life. I stay in my lane until I’ve learned the skill or knowledge necessary to swerve into another lane.
The question that was provoked by this sermon presents a challenge for me. As I am always striving to be better than I was yesterday, I will need to evaluate my moments of humility. I need to check my insecure, less confident inventory to gauge areas in need of growth and I need to break up some of my routines. It’s time to shake things up a little bit and be more adventurous. After all, failing a few times will only lead me to succeed.
I’ve never been much of a risk taker and it is very possible that this cautionary side of my personality may be connected to insecurities that I have not identified. From this day forward, I am going to journal more about opportunities and things that I have been so quick to turn down. I’m interested to see what patterns will come to light and how I can prepare myself for what happens after I say yes more often.
Now don’t get me wrong, my self-esteem hasn’t been negatively affected yet I’ve been pushed to challenge my thinking and decision making. Stay tuned. I will post an update for sure.